i fall way short of the mom/wife that i desire to be. my boys, all my boys, including brad, deserve better in my opinion. someone better at keeping the house clean, better at making delish meals, better at coming up with creative and fun things to do, better at living the Word, just better.
there are examples of these better people all throughout my life. i tend to choose friends that i adore and admire because of their beautiful qualities. so my closest peeps are the most generous, thoughtful, loving, mothers and wives around. keep that in mind besties who are reading this right now!
regardless of all these feelings of inadequacy, i am so loved. i thank the Lord for the reminders my boys give me of their appreciation and love for me. every day, usually several times a day, maxwell brings me this flower off of this little shelf. it is the absolute cutest thing. he will grab a long toy or broom and knock it down, then bring it to me saying, "here mommy, i got this for you"
brad works 6 days a week every week so that i can stay home and raise these beautiful boys. though it is a job he enjoys, i know where he would rather be. when he does arrive at home, finally, he ensures the corn stove is filled, settles for less than the best meals, and plays hard with his sons. yes, he is full of jokes and fun, and i appreciate so how he loves me each and every day.
i rest in the knowledge of this love. i may never be enough in my own mind, but it seems i am enough for the great love of my husband and kids. i know i am enough for the creator of the world to die for me, and that is incomprehensible, undeserved, and so so awesome. instead of focusing on the ways i fall short, i choose to focus on the love.